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jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 13 May 2006 02:35:27 GMT

I'm bored and I'm waiting for Laura to come home. She told me that I'm not allowed to go to sleep until she gets home. I have to be at C^2 tomorrow at 7:00am. Yuck. The truck doesn't come until 12:30 but I'm scheduled 7:00am - 11:30am. But I'm going to stay later because I'll get time and half for it.

I was going to run today but I just decided to work out instead. It's funny to me that I weigh 40lbs more than I did in High School. I need to find something to do tomorrow and Sunday.

This was a really boring entry. I think I'll go another 32 weeks without updating.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 24 Sep 2005 01:56:30 GMT

I bought a truck a couple months ago....

What is art? I don't know exactly but I think it has something to do with the Gay's...respect..

jacadeau@gmail.com — Thu, 17 Mar 2005 12:47:20 GMT

Everyone is Irish on St. Paddy’s Day. I’m going to the bar tonight and I’m going to get bitched at by Sean. I’m not going to drink tonight. I don’t have any money and I honestly can’t see throwing money down the drain by paying too much for alcohol. I even told Sean yesterday that I hadn’t planned on drinking and he gave me shit. The only way I’m going to drink tonight is if someone buy’s for me. Aside from that, I’d rather not waste my money.

Laura just left here a few minutes ago. She has to give a speech / give a power-point presentation today. I’m confident that she will do well. We are doing really well still. We see each other everyday and we make time to call each other whenever we get a chance. Tis’ good.

Well I think I’m going to get dressed for work and all that now. I have work, then class from 1:00-2:00 and from 5:45-7:00.

Later yall…

Laura is obsessed with me.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Fri, 11 Mar 2005 11:53:37 GMT

So this will be my last journal entry ever from Ron’s laptop. This is a damn shame.

Last night was the Unearth and Atreyu show. The show made me realize how much I dislike “hardcore” kids. Also, because of its gaining popularity, the music has become more and more bland and noticeably the same. I understand music sounding somewhat the same in one genre but there are countless bands that couldn’t be more cliché and less groundbreaking if they tried. It’s like they all have the same singer and all go to the “hardcore” equipment shop to buy the same equipment so they literally sound the same as each other. I know Nick thinks I’m an asshole at times for thinking this but I really can’t help it. I no longer like a lot of the bands in my CD collection because they’re just played out. If every metal band was like Unearth I wouldn’t even like Unearth anymore not based on popularity but more so on redundancy. (I spelt redundancy right on the first time y’all.)

I wish I didn’t feel this way because it’s getting harder to find music that I like but I guess this is just how it is. Every band Nick plays for me doesn’t impress me in the slightest anymore and it’s not a matter of “eh their alright” it’s more “could they try any harder to be a typical as possible?”

I admit that I am the reason that Nick and I no longer connect musically. I think that might actually be a good thing for now because our friendship focuses more on being dumb together and just laughing.

Ok, so back to my subject line. Laura is obsessed with me. She calls at like 8:00AM Berlin time, and is all like, “I got off work early” and I’m like, asleep and stuff….no foolin’. (This was about 2:00AM or so our time for those of you who don’t know mein fuhrer’s native time)

On a serious note, Laura and I had our 8-month thingie on the 9th. It blows my mind how well things are going. Laura and I must have spent over 200 nights together in our relationship. It’s crazy that we don’t get totally sick of each other. Well I really care about Laura and I’m glad she’s mine. The End.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 05 Mar 2005 12:16:48 GMT

Laura is cute first thing in the morning because I'm usually more awake than her so I can mess with her by moving really fast and she has no idea as to what is going on.

She's great... :)

it's a funny post...

jacadeau@gmail.com — Thu, 03 Mar 2005 04:39:28 GMT

Joey: "Your chest looks big today, let's go upstairs."
Laura: "shake shake...jiggle jiggle...sssssswwwwiiiiiirrrrrlllll."

jacadeau@gmail.com — Thu, 03 Mar 2005 04:32:28 GMT

I bet you Ray Charles could type fast...because he's black....

nothing.

i'm alright....i'm fine...no thanks.
me too....this is alot harder on a mac. hmph.what? i'm fine. if i was sad i wouldn't have...called you? yes...i'm open...damn...i'm fine...

heheheheheheheheh.....i dunno...

Between the 2 of us, Laura and I have managed to go through a entire can of pringles in 1.24 sittings...

hgehejeasjfkealsfjewhalkjfdx Ali G. do you wanna do something else?

silly silly.....driving was fun

these are good...

jacadeau@gmail.com — Wed, 02 Mar 2005 23:32:55 GMT

I’m taking a break before my exam.

I’m feeling kind of blah today. Waking up next to Laura is probably one of the best feelings I know. She’s great even when she gets bitchy at me when I’m helping her do powerpoint stuff.

I’m killing time before class right now. I have an exam and I don’t know how I’m going to do because I’ve taken in so much material in the past 24 hours its ridiculous.

Laura and aren’t going to see each other tonight which is weird seeing how I’ve seen her every night for the past while. I think it’ll be a healthy break which will allow me to study (which I won’t do) and get up early. (which I won’t do)...ok...ok....so Laura is here now...

I think I judge my friends too much. I get annoyed easily and I haven’t been respecting opinions of others lately. I need to stop being judgmental or something

I need to hang out with Lee sometime this weekend for the sole purpose of playing HALO 2.

I’m glad things are going so well with Laura. I know we’re just really happy to be together and stuff but I think we have been really open lately. She’s really great. She’s the prettiest girl I’ve ever gone out with and she’s the smartest. I like how playful she is …(I don’t mean that comment in a sexual way.)

On another note, I like how playful Laura is. (I mean this comment in a sexual way.)

Hooray or something…

Smiley - Face

fuckin' "a'...I got a rash man..

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sun, 27 Feb 2005 05:49:00 GMT

I'm watching The Big Lebowski...

So I have to go pick up Laura in a few minutes...we're gonna hang out for a bit. It's damn late but she's worth losing sleep.

I'm sleepy now. But it's ok.

I played some guitar today. I recorded myself for fun. It was fun getting some stuff down.

Fun fun fun fun fun fun fun.

Spending time with Laura has been great as of late. I'm happy to see her when I do and I really feel she is happy to see me. :)

Smiley - face.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 26 Feb 2005 15:36:43 GMT

Laura times 5 plus 69 = 22 hours

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 19 Feb 2005 15:34:42 GMT

I typed a bunch but I don’t feel like letting anyone read anything…

jacadeau@gmail.com — Thu, 17 Feb 2005 15:00:21 GMT

So...I'm tired...I hung out with Nicky last night until I thought I was going to pass out. I probably got to sleep around 12:30 or so and I woke up at 9:20. I woke up a few times throughout the night but I was able to fall back asleep.

I feel a lot better today emotionally. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still bummed out but at least I can think straight right now. I still feel sick when I think about the details of everything but I think that’ll go away soon.

I don’t think I should talk about all that anymore. I’ve decided that I don’t want to talk to Laura anytime soon. A big part of me cares about her but another big part of me hates her right now. I’m just filled with so much disgust and distaste for her but at the same time i was in love with her for the past however many months. I wish I didn’t feel anything right now.

I’ve been having a hard time figure out my days. I think today I’m going to work…go to school….work…and go to school again.

Tomorrow I’m going to Work in the AM hours…go to school and maybe hang around the office for a few hours…and then find someone to hang out with.

So…I don’t know what to say. I’m trying to get my head back together…

jacadeau@gmail.com — Wed, 16 Feb 2005 06:44:16 GMT

The only reason I’m posting this on LJ is because I cannot sleep and I need to get my thoughts down. If you are going to leave a comment, please do not pass judgment on Laura or myself.

Tonight was going ok until I found out from Laura’s friend Chelsea that Laura has been seeing her friend Timmy on a couple occasions as more than friends. They’ve kissed twice supposedly and they’ve cuddled a couple times and yesterday Laura went to visit Timmy. Timmy lives out by Diana…

I called Laura and she confirmed everything.

I was in love with Laura up until everything came crashing down. I’ve literally experienced every emotion since then. Laura came over to “explain” stuff but that really didn’t help either of us feel better or anything.

I still love Laura because I love:
Her skin
Her smile
Her touch
Her knowledge about music and random things that I don’t always understand
Her ability to do well in school
Her ability to make me happy
Her ability to make me smile
Her everything

I don’t like Laura because she:
Cheated on me
Withheld the truth from me
Led me on
Hurt me
Made me cry
Made me sad
Took advantage of my trust

I read Timmy’s LJ stuff just to read about how he wants to hold her and how he loves her…

I can’t get my feelings straight right now…I’ve never loved anyone like her and now all I want to do is hate her. She took everything I had to give and then some. These past months have been great but now I almost with I hadn’t been so naïve. She cheated on me and all I want is my feelings back.

But at the same time I want to forgive her and continue a relationship and work through everything. She’s been amazing.

I know these feelings are conflicting but I don’t know what to feel.

Why did she do what she did? Why hurt me? Why mess up our relationship? She said she was happy with me and she said that I was the best boyfriend that she’s ever had but I can’t believe that….because at the same time she was questioning our future…

What the fuck am I supposed to feel? All I know is I can’t sleep and I can’t feel much of anything…..but at the same time I feel everything.

the charm is stuck in my head...

jacadeau@gmail.com — Wed, 16 Feb 2005 05:55:08 GMT

Unearth - The Charm

The weight of the charm.
Light out for hands stretched to lead.
The forsaken walk of allegiance.
In trust we deceive.
Walk on-never to turn back.
A look inside turned to stone.
My soul is free with blood on my hands.
My soul is free.
Lights out.
I stand aside.
Struggle in mind.
I look inside to see the crowd infringed upon.
Lights out.
The death of the charm.
Lights out-the hands will recede.
The forgotten chance of disloyalty.
In trust we are deceived.
Send off-it's out of your hands.
Walk on-it's only your life.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Wed, 16 Feb 2005 05:22:43 GMT

I want to be sick in so many ways...

I had a dream last night....

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 12 Feb 2005 14:46:25 GMT

I had a weird dream and all I want to do this morning is read.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Wed, 09 Feb 2005 05:11:41 GMT

So I've been thinking a great deal lately. These next few months are going to be pretty crazy for me. I’ve got a ton to do but I really think I’ll be able to do well this semester and make decent money.

The other day Laura and I talked a bunch. I really love her a lot and I really appreciate everything she does for me. She’s everything I could ask for and more in a person, a best friend, and a girlfriend. I really feel lucky that she’s mine.

I know I really don’t get sappy on LJ but I think I just want to say that I really care about Laura. I feel a great deal of things for her, some of which I don’t understand but I’m still eager to understand those feelings.

She’s the reason I look forward to the 9th.

Laura is a big part of me life and I really love it. I like doing things for her to show her that I care and I love being around her all the time. It makes me happy.

I should get going now because she’s almost here and I have to get Ice Cream ready.

Happy 7 month Laura…I love you. Smiley – Face :)

jacadeau@gmail.com — Fri, 28 Jan 2005 01:45:56 GMT

I don't like how I've been treated by certain people these past 2 weeks...I can't believe how disrespectful people are.

I don't like being treated like I'm an idiot...

bah....

jacadeau@gmail.com — Thu, 20 Jan 2005 04:43:56 GMT

Laura's not looking.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Mon, 10 Jan 2005 21:52:26 GMT

These past few days have been really good for me. Yesterday was mine and Laura’s 6 month. I decided that I want to quit Best Buy.

I’ve also decided that I really miss hanging out with Fix. He’s one of my best friends and I am really bummed that he’s in Kentucky so much. I think that he’s one of maybe 2 people that I know in the world that would never lie to me. Although we piss each other off from time to time I know Fix will be a life long friend. He’s the only person I know that has always been there for me.

I started classes again today. I think that classes will go well this semester. I am really optimistic and I have no idea as to why.

I bought a CD today

jacadeau@gmail.com — Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:17:27 GMT

Laura and Lee are the only two people I really keep in touch with on a day to day basis. Fix has been in and out of Kentucky for a little while now and although it was good seeing him this past week, I got a little annoyed with him.

I didn’t want to say anything while he was in town simply because it really wasn’t worth mentioning. Every now and then Fix gets an attitude where it seems like he thinks he’s better than me. I know that’s kind of an asshole way to describe it but I can’t think of another way to word it. I think it might just be his wording that bothers me. It seems like he’s trying to talk down to me or make it seem like he knows everything about something. I don’t want to go into detail because I don’t think it really matters much but its just bothering me right now.

I left his place early on Saturday but that’s for an entirely different reason. I’ll go into detail later I guess.

Jenni is still my neighbor but she is not my friend. She’s just another person that I’ve lost touch with but I’m not at all sad about it. I could care less simply because I’m tired of carrying friendships and I’m not going to make the weekly friendly phone calls anymore.

If someone has a problem with me and is too scared to talk to me, ohhhhhh well.

I should re-read all this but I really don't feel like it and I'm already late to Laura's.

I <3 Laura! heh heh..

jacadeau@gmail.com — Tue, 21 Dec 2004 05:26:52 GMT

I love my girlfriend so much. She is the hottest most awesome girl in the whole world. I am so happy and lucky!
I love seeing her and being with her.. I'm just sooo happy we are together!
Did I mention I love her? She's just so wonderful and pretty and fun and smart.. Oh I could go on forever!

By the way.. this is NOT Laura writing all of this while Joey takes a shower... Nope..

Return to sender............

jacadeau@gmail.com — Thu, 09 Dec 2004 13:16:04 GMT

So last night I was supposed to work until 11:00 or so then go over Laura’s. While I was at work my head started pounding and by 10:00 I was feeling sick to my stomach.

I left work about an hour early and I went straight home. Shortly after I got home I got sick and my headache turned into a full blown migraine. I don’t think I’ve ever had a migraine ever in my life before but I don’t know what else to call what I was feeling.

I couldn’t sleep because my head hurt so bad and I couldn’t stop rolling over. It was almost like I couldn’t tell what my position was in to get comfortable but I think that was mostly because I was so tired. After a while I fell asleep for an hour or so and when I woke up my head was still pounding and I had to try and fall asleep all over again.

So in closing, I guess I’d have to say that I don’t remember feeling like that since I had mono.

It sucked beyond all belief of sucking.

Now I feel fine.

jacadeau@gmail.com — Wed, 17 Nov 2004 20:32:42 GMT

I'm doing ok today. I dropped my chemistry class. I e-mailed my professor and we both decided that dropping would be best for me. I’m going to retake the class next semester. It’s a bummer but I think I’ll be ok. This allows me to focus more on my Calculus class and my Economics class. I don’t have difficult classes, I’m just a slacker. I think I need to gradually get into gear and hopefully I won’t be such a fucking idiot next semester.

On a side note, I got a raise at Best Buy the other day. I make $9.23 now. So I make $9.23/hr at Best Buy and $11/hr at College Industrial Park.

I can put in a full day tomorrow at College Park. I’ll be working off my debt. My car troubles really put me over the edge in terms of how little money I have.

I haven’t been feeling well lately, I need to get on a solid food schedule. I get plenty of sleep but my eating habits are very random and poor. No more Twix for breakfast.

===Wave of babies==

HA!

jacadeau@gmail.com — Sat, 13 Nov 2004 17:50:29 GMT

i'm updating